I have a disability that causes me to be in an extreme amount of pain when I walk, sit, or stand for more than a few minutes. I use a wheelchair to get around the house and any outside activities. I have been dealing with this since I became pregnant with my third baby–he is six now.
I feel best when I am lying down. I feel sad that I can’t get up and play with my kids like other moms do. My daughter has a look in her eye that says “Please don’t take a nap, I want to play with you”. I know I need rest so that I can be the best mom I can be.
When the kids are in school, it’s easier to get the rest I need. Now that they are home for summer break, I am not resting as much. I find myself getting up to help them get their chores done, break up sibling fights, or to play with them and spend time with them. I really do need to lie down as much as possible to relieve my body from all of the pain.
I need naps so I can be the most patient, happy mom I can be. We’ve adapted our lifestyle so that I play games with them from my bed, we snuggle, watch movies, and we read. I have listened to Mommy Time 101 and have been implementing those strategies so the kids know when it is mommy’s rest time and they know that mommy will get up and play with them after her rest. However, I feel so guilty all of the time!
I feel like my children always want more of me than I can give, like I’m letting them down. That’s exactly it: they want more of me than I can give.
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